The last milestone…


On August 25, 2013, I wrote a post about Firsts. It was five days after the Mr had his accident. We were headlong on a journey that frankly, we weren’t sure how or when it would end. I say “we” as it was “our” journey, not just his. His journey took him through pain, healing, and rehabilitation.

My journey took me through nursing him in the beginning, patience (oh lord, lots of patience), taking care of him through his rehab, and finally, letting go.

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What I learned this past week… about me.


I learned a few things at NMX this past weekthat didn’t have a thing to do with the conference.

I attended a ton of sessions and met up with old friends and made a couple of new ones. I gathered a lot of information that will be quite helpful going forward.


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According to the Universe…


“I’m right where I’m supposed to be…”

I can’t tell you how many times this year I’ve said this. Sometimes I believed it, sometimes not so much. But, I’m a firm believer that the Universe doesn’t put us in places we’re not supposed to be…at least not for long. It’s what we learn in those places that make the difference in how we go forward with life.

At this time last year, I had accepted a position in San Francisco and was packing up my stuff to move. The Mr was staying on the Farm that we’ve lived on for over twenty years. The decision to move to San Francisco wasn’t made lightly. It was difficult for both of us. But, it was necessary — for our marriage, and for the never-ending feeling I had that something exciting was waiting for me in the “City.” I was ready to go. Continue reading


He woke up screaming. The pain medicine does that. Those medicines have changed his sleeping patterns. He talks in his sleep, dreams more vividly, and on occasion, has nightmares. He’s no longer on the hardcore medicines, but he’s still on powerful drugs.

It happened out of the blue, but has been brewing for days. The Mr had a huge meltdown yesterday. In all fairness, I don’t blame him one bit, but I have to admit, it did scare me.

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feel better 12 leapingWe’re just over a week into recovery, and the Mr is progressing. He’s having better days and is going a bit longer between doses of pain medicine during the day. That is a good thing. He’s up more and moving around, he has watched movies and TV shows on his computer, finally has somewhat of an appetite, and he just looks better. I can’t tell you how good that makes me feel.  Continue reading


Pain, with a drug induced fog. That’s how he’s living now. It’s going to be like this for at least six weeks. I can’t explain how frightened this makes me. Pain is one thing. I can relate to the pain. I can’t relate to the drugs. Hard core narcotics. Those frighten me, but oh my god, they are necessary. Pain is what you get when you saw through your muscle, tendon, and bone, with a power tool. Stupid freak accident.

“An object at rest stays at rest and an object in motion stays in motion with the same speed and in the same direction unless acted upon by an unbalanced force.” Newton’s First Law of Physics

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It took me 98 weeks…


Jobless spiral

Jobless spiral (Photo credit: Steve Rhodes)

…to finally land a job.

Yes, you read that right. Ninety-eight (98) weeks, and I finally have a job. My final week on unemployment ended Saturday, December 15, 2012. I have used the entire ninety-nine (99) weeks of benefits available to me.  I am beyond grateful that those benefits were there – it allowed me to continue to pay my bills and live. I sincerely wish I didn’t have to use all of those weeks, but I did.  Continue reading